As you write, do you choose every word carefully, color it with love and fill it up with you? Those are words from Lee Ann Womack's song, "The Story of My Life." You shouldn't always take advice from country songs, but think on the words of the chorus:
Find all the love deep within, give it away.
Be thankful for all that I've been given.
From now on, this is how I want to write,
The story of my life."
If not, do you want to change? Maybe you don't even need to...your life is exciting...or the quiet suits you.
I love the series, House MD. In season five (yes, that's where I'm at right now, so no spoilers), there's an episode with a sick caner researcher. After a previous surgery, she gave up her work in search of happiness. She's started piano lessons, is working as a sous-chef...just doing things she enjoys. The doctors have a hard time dealing with the fact that she turned her back on a cure for retinal cancer, that was reportedly months away from being approved. Yet, it causes one doctor to reconsider the choice to not have children, another the frightful postion of working under House. The theme of looking for self-fulfillment, versus doing something for others and the definition of happiness are recurring themes on the show. Does Cuddy need a baby to be happy? Can House be diagnose people if he's happy? Does Wilson need to care for others to be happy?
Not that you should always take advice from TV series, but could the search for happiness enough? Are you looking for meaning, for the pimento of life, for a fulfilling life? Is THAT worth everything? So what's stopping you?
The back cover of a great book reads, "What if the life you really want, and the future God wants for you, is hiding right now in your biggest problem, your worst failure...your greatest fear?"
The book is called, "In a Pit With a Lion on a Snowy Day", by Mark Batterson. Let me just say, I hate self-help books, sermonizing books and the like. This was just really different.
You have to read it (obviously I'm gonna say that), but his main points are about mastering skills to not run from the lions in our lives, but to chase them down and take the victory. His points are: Defy the odds, Face fears, Reframe problems, Embrace uncertainty, Take risks, Seize opportunity, Look foolish. A favorite line is, "You can do nothing wrong and still do nothing right." My life shouldn't be about avoiding making mistakes or doing things wrong, it should be full of all the things I did...which I then wrote a best-seller about ;)
The book and philosophy are definitely from a Christian standpoint, but hey! If everyone can join and learn stuff from the Boys Scouts of America and Alcoholics Anonymous, whO both acknowledge a Higher Power, then maybe you'll find something to take away from this book too.
So, are you living? Are you living a life you could write about, tell your grandkids about? Do you want to live that life? What's stopping you?